Gift in disguise

We grow in consciousness by shedding old skin and waking up with a raised level of spiritual consciousness.

This is what my BOOK is about, that is currently being read by a few people for the first time… (exciting!): actually it is a personal LOVE STORY about healing my BIPOLAR DISORDER. 

And when I say ‘healing’ I do not mean only getting out of my severe sick state of being and ‘back’ to my ‘normal’ state, preventing myself from further episodes of depressions and hyper-whatevers. I mean true HEALING: which for me means clearing away the illusions. transforming, evolving… evolution if you wish. The way I see it, evolution doesn’t happen in between generations or over a looong period of time, true evolution of consciousness happens within one life. I dare to say that I deeply healed something that I won’t pass this on in whatever way for sure.

To be clear: I did this before drinking Ayahuasca. At least, I healed as much that I was out of pharmaceutical medication and could safely drink the brew. And ayahuasca and other sacred plants helped me further to return back to the Essential Truth of my Divine Self, the Limitless,Infinite Potential Source Energy, that I am.

I have been a victim for long. Being sexually abused as a child (which fucked up my natural gift to connect with others, especially the male ones) and having a severe bi-polar disorder (being stuffed with chemical medication, so – apart from the depression and hypmanic episodes – I suffered millions of side effects that totally ruined my health among other things), making my life pretty miserable… It was so unjust. Why me? Etc. etc.

‘With everything that has happened to you, you can either feel sorry for yourself or treat what has happened as a gift. Everything is either an opportunity to grow or an obstacle to keep you from growing. You get to choose.’ – Dr. Wayne W. Dyer

It took me a while (about 30 years) to recognize this GIFT IN DISGUISE. I have been able to heal myself and wrote down my personal story about the healing of an incurable bipolar disorder to hopefully inspire others. I know the low and the high places inside out and this opened amazingly precious spaces for me that I now know how to enter in a positive and constructive way.

I feel very grateful for all that happened (nope, you wouldn’t have heard me claim this in the midst of it!) and that I found the DIAMOND in my wounds… after searching, digging, trying, failing, falling, getting back up and try another road, try again… feeling desperate and pick myself up again. And again. Until… I woke up!

Nowadays I bring many tools that might support you in your waking up. If this resonates with you and you feel called on this path, you are very welcome to come in one of our retreats, ceremonies or for a session…

Much love,
Yama Voorhorst

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